Nothing Beats a First Kiss
By Elle Mathews
I guess it all started when I was in junior high school. His name was Chuckie. After fifteen years I still remember like it was yesterday. I still remember how my heart was beating twenty miles an hour. I was hoping he couldn’t hear it pounding through my chest. We were outside my house under the last streetlight on the block. I came up to his neck so I stood on the curb while he remained on the street. He didn’t move. He didn’t make a sound. Our faces were only inches from each other. His breath smelled like musty spearmint. I closed my eyes. The urge to jump out of my skin was so powerful that what happened next was a blur. It happened faster then it started. When we finally stepped apart from each other, I tasted his breath on my lips. The only word I could say when it was over was bye. He stared at the ground then hopped on his bike. He didn’t say a word. Then suddenly I woke up from what felt like a dream. Why wasn’t he saying anything? Did I not do it right? I tried to go over it in my mind. But it was still a blur. Did he have a manual on this subject that I didn’t know about? Did I not follow it? As these questions were screaming in my head, he looked up directly into my eyes He smiled. Not just a smile, but one that melted away the now ridiculous analytical thoughts in my head. I fell back into my dream. At that moment the earth could have opened up and tried to swallow me whole, but it would be too late. I was on a cloud floating too far away from the ground. It was my first kiss and after fifteen years, I remember it like it was yesterday.
That was the beginning. It was the beginning of a journey towards a first love, heartaches, and the eventual introduction of online dating. Since there isn’t a course like Love 101, I learn only from my experiences. Even if I continue to find Mr. Wrong, I’m still finding that I’m learning more about myself and what I want in a relationship and in a companion. I find that after heartache, I come out stronger and apply that strength towards everyday life. With every new relationship, touches, feelings and words are more passionate then the next. I don’t take love for granted. I cherish every single one of my relationships with friends and family. In the end it’s all about the journey, not the destination.
Elle Mathews is currently trying to break into a field that fits her interests and inventive mind. She has a passion for the performing arts, writing, video editing/TV production and creativity. She can’t get enough of beautiful scenery and wants to see the world. Elle is experienced at dating and online dating and has much to share with our readers. Elle is always up for learning and trying new experiences.
